THE CHAMELEON STORY SHE NEVER TOLD

A STORY OF RESILIENCE

How Truth She Told EP became the catalyst for a journey of healing and self-discovery.

By Roskamala

January 11, 2025

Have you ever watched a movie where everything seems wrong, and you just wish you could rewrite the scenes, hit pause, and give it a new ending? For years, I lived as if my life were a film that I desperately wanted to edit—fixing and somehow making it better. But life doesn’t come with a remote control.

When my Social Media Manager told me, “You have to be authentic—that’s the only way to build your fans,” I froze. I had no response. Behind the scenes of creating Truth She Told, I was in a space of pure creation—music, lyrics, melodies—they were liberating. But sharing it with the world? That terrified me.

The EP was all about truth. But how do you speak the truth when you haven’t even found your own voice?

That question haunted me, and after releasing Truth She Told, I withdrew for nearly two years. Anxiety and depression gripped me, pulling me into a space where I had to step away from everything—social media, music, and even myself—in order to heal.

Healing isn’t linear, but it does teach one thing: the only way out is through.

A Little Girl with Big Dreams

Before I had a voice, I had a dream. Growing up in Thailand, I found joy in the simplest things. There was a high-ceilinged room in my childhood home that felt like a castle to me. In that room, I would line up my stuffed animals and hold imaginary concerts. Solitude was my stage, and music was my escape.

But beneath that creativity was a world marked by contradiction—privilege and isolation intertwined. My family’s home buzzed with nannies, drivers, and helpers, a façade of perfection. But something within me felt hollow.

One day, a stray cat appeared on the couch, curling up as though it belonged. For a brief moment, I felt seen. But stray cats don’t follow the rules. After a few incidents, the cat was taken away—only to return, briefly, before disappearing again.

At that time, I didn’t understand it, but those fleeting moments shaped me. I found resilience by watching a baby bird fall and then try again to fly. I discovered creativity in the quiet of solitude. I dreamed not just of freedom for myself, but for everyone.

Yet, life wasn’t all high ceilings and imaginary concerts. There were contradictions everywhere. My parents worked hard to maintain the illusion of a perfect exterior, but inside, it felt like living in Downton Abbey—if Downton Abbey had been set in Ozark. Rules and appearances clashed with a bubbling chaos beneath, and I found myself lost, trying to understand it all.

Living a Life That Wasn’t Mine

As an adult, I learned to blend in. People told me things like:

“You think too big for most people to understand.”

“You’re not from this world. Learn to fit in.”

So I did. I became a chameleon. I copied others, suppressed my true self to fit in, and wore too many masks to count. For a time, it worked. I was a teacher, entrepreneur, pastry chef, TV presenter, singer, and yes, even a dishwasher.

But the more I tried to fit into other people’s stories, the messier my life became. Worse decisions. Worse habits. Eventually, the weight of being someone I wasn’t became too much. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder in my twenties and PTSD in my thirties, I spiraled into darkness. It felt like watching a movie I didn’t want to direct, let alone star in.

Motherhood and a Pen in Hand

In 2017, my daughter was born, and suddenly survival wasn’t enough. I had to live.

One night, after yet another chaotic day, I wiped my tears, grabbed a pen, and began writing. Words flowed from me, raw and unpolished. For the first time, I wasn’t trying to be anyone else but myself.

That night changed everything. Less than a year later, I had written, directed, and released Truth She Told EP. My song Chameleon—the most personal track I’d ever written—won first place and an honorable mention at the International Songwriting Competition. Critics called it “the most deeply intense song we’ve ever listened to.”

But even with all that, imposter syndrome whispered in my ear: “You don’t deserve this.”

Reclaiming My Life

Now, I see things differently. Off medication and living a healthier lifestyle, I’ve embraced my truth. I’m a loud introvert who thrives in solitude, a proud mom, and a creator who believes in second chances and peace. My purpose is clear: to use my voice—through music and writing—to illuminate the path for those who need light in the darkness.

Through my art, I share the lessons I’ve learned: resilience, authenticity, healing, and hope. These themes are woven into the stories I’m creating—stories of transformation, self-love, and navigating life’s darkest moments. Each word I write is a promise: “Peace is possible, and there is beauty in finding your truth.”

Why Am I Telling You This?

Because I know I’m not the only one who’s felt like an alien trying to fit into a world that doesn’t understand them. I know I’m not the only one who’s felt stuck in a movie they didn’t want to watch.

Releasing Truth She Told EP was a turning point, but not in the way I expected. Instead of feeling free, I felt exposed—like I’d opened a door I wasn’t ready to walk through. So, I disappeared—two years of quiet, messy, exhausting work on myself.

Healing doesn’t come in clean lines or neat endings. It’s more like untangling a ball of thread, pulling at one knot only to find another. But through that process, I found something I’d been searching for all along: the version of me who unapologetically accepts every part of myself.

So, what about you? What’s your story? And when will you finally tell it?

Praise for Truth She Told EP

“A testament to the transformative power of storytelling.” – Wonderland Magazine

“Unflinching in its exploration of self-discovery and resilience.” – Atwood Magazine

“Profound reflection on how our experiences shape who we are.” – V13

“A beacon of hope through life’s adversity.” – Cliché Magazine

“Brilliantly honest and unapologetically raw.” – CelebMix

About the Author

Roskamala is a storyteller and artist who transforms life’s complexities into music, words, and art. Each piece offers light for those who are ready to receive it.

Her work spans award-winning music and reflective writing, part of a creative practice rooted in depth, intention, and a belief in the human spirit’s ability to rise.

She lives gently, creates with purpose, and gives without expectation.